The Distracted Housewife

Sometimes, it would seem as though that would be a more appropriate title for my blog. As a person working to overcome the tendencies of a vacillating pleaser, I am having to learn to overcome being a big ball of anxious, back and forth thinking. 

Yesterday was a battle for me. I was having a pretty good day, overall, until plans changed. Not only did they change, but they also put me in a time crunch. Now, sometimes I am ok with plans changing. I am pretty much never ok when I have a time crunch. The idea that being on time is being late is embedded in me and I wasn't even sure if we'd be on time. I wrestled with it out loud. "God, please, help me. I know that I shouldn't be anxious, because either way we are going to get where we are going." Then I realized, I wasn't just anxious about being late. I was anxious about ruining something for someone else by being late. The truth is, I wouldn't have. Being late wouldn't have been a big deal. Yet, here I was feeling my pulse rise along with my agitation at EVERY red light - which was pretty much all of them - I hit. I felt ridiculous for being so upset, which only exacerbated my growing frustration.

In the midst of this struggle, God's peace was working. I normally would've blown a much bigger gasket, but managed to maintain a bit of sanity. We made it safely and with time to spare. It really wasn't a big deal.

In this moment, of living out a recent sermon from my pastor about stopping stinkin' thinkin', I see God working. He knows what we have need of, even before we ask. He knew the struggle I have with my thinking, and that this week, would be an exceptional struggle as He broadened my perspective. I know it will take perseverance, but that the day will come when I will walk in His ultimate peace and joy.

From Milk to Meat

What does it mean to go from nursing to eating solids, in our faith? What does it look like to hunger for more?

For me, it is a desire for more understanding, knowledge, and Godly wisdom. I don't want to just read the bible or go to church and sit through a service anymore, though I do believe that it is still important.

I want more. I want to dig deeper and deeper into what the word is saying. What it is showing. It's easy to miss so much, simply by reading or by only listening to sermons.

God wasn't just saying study. He truly meant it. When we do, we know Him better.

Not only that, but I don't want to just throw out to others, "I'll be praying for you!". I want to start praying WITH them. To lay hands on them and allow them to lay hands on me and pray, fervently. Not just when it is convenient or hidden, but whenever and whereever it is needed.

There is so much power in prayer, especially when we pray together.

I'm ready for meat. I'm ready for deeper, more meaningful experiences.