How Blinded We Are by Our Foolish Pride.

  It amazes me, how foolish I've been over my lifetime. All the things I missed appreciating, because of my blindness. It makes sense that we don't know what we've got until it is gone.

   I came across a couple of cards my husband gave me years ago. One was a birthday card, the other an anniversary card. Both with similar sentiments, "I'll love you forever." I'm not a big crier, but I felt a little dew creep to the surface of my eyes.

    Candidly speaking, I didn't believe him, when he gave me the cards. I was too busy holding tight to the baggage I had enter into our marriage with. Baggage that, until recently, weighed me down and had me living as though it was only a matter of time.

    Sometimes, it takes a good "slap in the face", to wake us up to see beyond our clouded perspectives. Especially when someone is as stubborn as I am. Thank God, He knows how to get my attention, even if it takes a decade or so.

     As the storm that was brewing, has settled down, though, I doubt it is over quite yet, I find it more difficult to remember to lean on Him. How easily we forget. Yet, He doesn't stop drawing me back, reminding me that, in the rain and in the shine I am His and He is mine.

     So often, I look at life as though it's all about here. Lately, however, He has been stirring in me that, all these things are really about Him. That it isn't really about my relationship with my husband, but about my relationship with God. After all Matthew 6:33 states that we are to "seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness."

      When our relationship, with God, becomes a priority, treated with the utmost passion, desire, and dedication, He takes care of the rest. He is our healer, our portion, our ever present help in time of need. He has certainly been faithful to me as I have needed Him, even when I think I don't.

       As my relationship with Him grows, my understanding of love grows, making me more capable of loving my husband and letting go of petty things and wrong expectations, and helping me to see past what he *should* be doing to "What am I doing?". I'm finding the courage to believe, hope, and to trust God, with everything. I still have a long ways to go, but I find peace in knowing that I am on the path towards success.

      Knowing that God can change us, just as He changed Saul/Paul, it's amazing and it fills me with joy and delight. It feels good to at least scratch the surface, and to hunger after going deeper. God is mighty and when He moves, if we are willing, He will do miraculous things.