The urge to purge, rearrange, and reorganize

That's what I have. Yet there isn't a whole lot I can do with the space we have. If our "guest room" was available I'd be able to easily set things up the way I need to, but we're letting family stay there for a while. I need space to practice massage and don't really feel I have it.

I also have a strong urge to sew. I have lots of things I want to make, but at this time I don't have a serger and the stuff I want to make needs to be serged if I really want it to last.

I have this strong energy of productivity within, but feel like I can't use it on the things it's thriving to be used for. If that makes any sense. I have plenty of stuff I could use it on. It's just not what is calling to me. That doesn't mean I'm not working on those other things, of course. I just feel artistically stifled.

Somedays I feel so artistically suffocated I think I could explode. I have a great life, but there is more to me than I've been and it frustrates me because I don't know how to express the other parts of me.

Dreams are funky things...

...and mine just don't make much sense lately. I know I have a lot going on, but sometimes my dreams make me feel like I'm Alice falling down the rabbit hole. I usually can pick out in them things from the course of the day, or things I'm feeling and/or experiencing. It's the little details lately that have gotten to me. Like people who show up in them and sometimes things that happen in them. Maybe I should take my dreams and write some books with them. That's what others do.

School is going well, I think. I'm almost finished with the first semester, which is exciting. Right now our main focus is muscles and I have to say, it's cool. The way they feel once you know what they are and what they are doing changes your perspective, or at least mine. Although some of them are a little scary. The other night I was feeling one up in behind the shoulder blade and I made a girls arm go tingly all the up to her neck. The teacher said I may have struck an endangerment sight. Now I'm a little iffy about getting into the deep hidden away muscles. I'm just hoping I can retain the information, but we have a great teacher who understands there are more ways to learn than just one.

Homeschooling is going ok. I've bought some real curriculum and can't wait to really plan our use of it out and get started with it. I think my kids are doing ok now, but could definetly be doing better with these better resources.

It's March

Again it's been a while since I posted. I've been really busy with school. Thankfully I did really well on my practical. Got a 98% and was told I did awesome. That made me feel really good since I'd been having a horrible week. Just the day before I'd gotten a 62 (which is an F in my school) on my muscle naming test. Plus I was feeling like crap about myself anyway. I won't throw a pitty party on here, since it isn't necessary. But I am feeling somewhat better now.

I'm really glad Spring is starting to arrive. I can't wait to get out in my garden and just outside in general. I love snow and all, but I don't love cold. It might not be so bad if I was actually able to participate in some winter sports or something. I don't think I could handle living in Alaska though, because I'm really excited about the sunny days we are finally getting, as though the sun hasn't shown since fall.