So tonight in class the teacher asked us to tell something we learned today. I said that "S.O.A.P. notes aren't as scarey as I had thought" What I should've said was that I've learned recently that I worry too much about being good enough, which leads me to being sensitive to criticism a little more than your average person. It was brought to my attention from 2 people. My A&P teacher, who has told me to stop worrying so much. I'm doing wonderfully in class and my worrying is adding exteremely unnecassary stress to me. Then my husband. I vent to him everything I want to be good enough at that I'm not sure I am. The other day he basically told me that I needed to trust in what I can do and harbor confidence (no those weren't his exact words). And you know what, of course, they are right. I fret and stress over how good of a mom I am, are my children really learning and growing like they "should", am I going to keep doing well in school, am I really good at this that or the next thing. I'm so afraid of adding another failure to my L O N G list of failures that I'm making myself somewhat sick over it all. And for what? No real reason. I never realized before how obsessed I am with wanting to be good enough, but feeling like (for the most part) I'm not. I don't know why I feel that way or where it comes from. But I'm ready to get over it and let it go and grow and blossom. It has been a HUGE hinderance in my life and in my ability to succeed. Today our teacher shared the story of the young girl who asks her grandpa which wolf inside her will win. The grandpa says "Whichever one you feed" Obviously, I need to stop feeding into fear and worry and doubt and start feeding into confidence and faith and peace.