Yesterday I enjoyed some fellowship with a friend of mine. I had been telling her that I don't think drinking alcohol in and of itself is a sin, but that when I tell other people that they give me looks of obvious disagreement.
Here is my take on it. There are 10 commandments that we are held to. At least that is my understanding. Gentiles are not held to Levitical laws. In the New Testament, Jesus turns water into wine. Now, I know some people think this was grape juice, but I remember being taught in synagogue that during Jewish festivities, there is wine, not grape juice. So if drinking alcohol is a sin then why would Jesus condemn an entire wedding party to hell, by providing them with alcohol? It doesn't compute for me. Drinking alcohol becomes a sin when we become gluttonous about it. Therefore it isn't the alcohol that is the sin, but the gluttony. I mean we don't look at pie and say "You're going to hell for eating pie" and yet people are gluttonous with that too. What is the difference? Excessive pie intake makes you unhealthy and so does excessive alcohol intake. That's why God doesn't want us to do it.
She then she asked me about homosexuality. We constantly hear about Levitical law, but what about the New Testament? There is a place in the New Testament, which of course I can't remember exactly where right now, that also says that homosexuality is a sin. Just as premarital sex and adultery are sins. So why then, do Christians balk at one sin more than another? They are all 3 the same type of sin. The bible says a sin is a sin. It doesn't say oh well you, a man, had an affair with a woman so your sin is this big and you, woman, slept with another woman so your sin is THIS BIG... To Him, I believe, they look more like this "This man had an affair, that falls under sexual immorality. This woman had sex with a woman, that falls under sexual immorality." It's equal! So if we can love a person who is a glutton with pie, because we "overlook" their sin, why is it so difficult to love someone for being a homosexual. We are not here to judge, but to love God and love others!
Now before I get the, "But Jesus didn't say that" remember why he came! Jesus didn't come to tell us what sin was. That had already been done! He came to show us who God was and what God was truly like, because so many people had a skewed view. Parents don't give us rules to confine us or ruin our lives. They give us rules to create guardrails to protect us, keep us safe, and to give us the best they can, because they *love* us. If God is our heavenly father, why is it so difficult for us to see why His rules are so important and the love that is behind them?
"So do all homosexuals go to hell?" she asked. I don't think they do. I think it works like this, if you are a glutton, but you choose to not act on it (i.e. over eat.) and you do it for the right reasons, not out of obligation or with resentment, then why would God punish you? So if you don't act on the urges you have but refrain from sin because of your love for God then He has no reason to punish you since you aren't doing anything wrong. It doesn't matter what that sin is.
Why do I use gluttony as a comparison/example? Because I have issues with gluttony and I am no less a sinner than anyone else. I'm sure this idea would make some laugh. I'm not a very big person. However, I'm not a very healthy person either and it is because of the things I over eat. I probably eat 4 servings of ice cream almost every time I serve it to myself. If we have cookies, they maybe last a day. Sometimes 2. Granted I have 4 cookie monsters in my house, but still, I'm not an innocent bystander. My point. I'm honestly less interested in telling someone else what a sinner they are, when I have sins of my own I need to clean up.
Friday, November 30, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Traits of a world changer
The bible tells us that God wants us to change our world. To be a light that shines for Him. To make a difference.
God has a calling for us. If you have trouble believing that because you don't think you're anything special, read your bible. Over and over again, God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things. How do we discover what that calling is? What makes you cry? When you hear about it, see it, etc... what is that it makes you want to do something, even if you don't know how or what? Pray. Pray about that thing and pray that God will show you what it is He wants you to do. What reason He has for putting that thing on your heart. Allow God to answer you. When you hear Him, act on His words. Allow God to move you and be obedient to His voice. Remember our choices have consequences good or bad. Every choice we make causes something to happen. What choice will you make? What will you allow God to do with you, through you, and in you? Whatever God's call, stay connected to Him. In Him you will find the strength and courage you will need to persevere and fulfill His will.
What difference are you willing to make for God today?
3 They said to me, “Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire.”
4 When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven.
God has a calling for us. If you have trouble believing that because you don't think you're anything special, read your bible. Over and over again, God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things. How do we discover what that calling is? What makes you cry? When you hear about it, see it, etc... what is that it makes you want to do something, even if you don't know how or what? Pray. Pray about that thing and pray that God will show you what it is He wants you to do. What reason He has for putting that thing on your heart. Allow God to answer you. When you hear Him, act on His words. Allow God to move you and be obedient to His voice. Remember our choices have consequences good or bad. Every choice we make causes something to happen. What choice will you make? What will you allow God to do with you, through you, and in you? Whatever God's call, stay connected to Him. In Him you will find the strength and courage you will need to persevere and fulfill His will.
What difference are you willing to make for God today?
Luke 19:41-42
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41 As he approached Jerusalem and saw the city, he wept over it 42 and said, “If you, even you, had only known on this day what would bring you peace—but now it is hidden from your eyes.
Nehemiah 1:1-4
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Nehemiah 1
Nehemiah’s Prayer
1 The words of Nehemiah son of Hakaliah: In the month of Kislev in the twentieth year, while I was in the citadel of Susa, 2 Hanani, one of my brothers, came from Judah with some other men, and I questioned them about the Jewish remnant that had survived the exile, and also about Jerusalem.3 They said to me, “Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire.”
4 When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
I'm Hungry
This past Sunday, I brought my youngest to the nursery. He doesn't like to be away from me and cried the whole time. Half way through the service I had to go get him because he was just sitting at the door crying, non-stop. Poor guy. Thankfully our church has a cry room set up at the back of the sanctuary so we can see and hear the service without disturbing the other patrons. Unfortunately that means I missed a little chunk of the sermon. It was a good one too. That evening we watched Courageous. We have movie night once a month with concessions that support missions.
The topic was "I'm hungry"
There are times when I get so into a project that the rest of life and the world seem to disappear. Hours later, when I run out of steam or finish, I realize, "Where did the time go!" Then I realize, "Man, I'm hungry!" We do the same thing spiritually. We get busy with our jobs, appointments, activities, chores, etc... Even though we had planned on doing a devotional this morning we just got caught up in something else. I know this happens to me when my kids wake up before or with me. At the end of the day when it is bed time I still don't always get to that devotion because I'm so worn out and as soon as I get the kids all into bed I crash too. I know others can relate. God gets put on the back burner. We intend to devote time and attention to him, but life happens. The world is moving busily.
We need to stop and take a moment to ask ourselves "What am I hungry for?" Our hunger leads us. If we're hungry for Italian food we're not going to eat at a Mexican restaurant. If we want ice cream we're not going to eat pop corn. What are we hungry for? Are we hungry for money, for possessions, for friends, for power, or for God?
When we allow ourselves to get full of everything but God, we leave no room for Him. Just like a person who has eaten their fill at a meal refuses dessert, because they have no room for it.
When we ask what we're hungry for and the answer is not God, then we need to begin to cultivate a hunger for him. God tells us to hunger and thirst after righteousness. God is righteousness.
8 Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind,
9 for he satisfies the thirsty
and fills the hungry with good things.
The topic was "I'm hungry"
There are times when I get so into a project that the rest of life and the world seem to disappear. Hours later, when I run out of steam or finish, I realize, "Where did the time go!" Then I realize, "Man, I'm hungry!" We do the same thing spiritually. We get busy with our jobs, appointments, activities, chores, etc... Even though we had planned on doing a devotional this morning we just got caught up in something else. I know this happens to me when my kids wake up before or with me. At the end of the day when it is bed time I still don't always get to that devotion because I'm so worn out and as soon as I get the kids all into bed I crash too. I know others can relate. God gets put on the back burner. We intend to devote time and attention to him, but life happens. The world is moving busily.
We need to stop and take a moment to ask ourselves "What am I hungry for?" Our hunger leads us. If we're hungry for Italian food we're not going to eat at a Mexican restaurant. If we want ice cream we're not going to eat pop corn. What are we hungry for? Are we hungry for money, for possessions, for friends, for power, or for God?
When we allow ourselves to get full of everything but God, we leave no room for Him. Just like a person who has eaten their fill at a meal refuses dessert, because they have no room for it.
When we ask what we're hungry for and the answer is not God, then we need to begin to cultivate a hunger for him. God tells us to hunger and thirst after righteousness. God is righteousness.
Psalm 107:8-9
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8 Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind,
9 for he satisfies the thirsty
and fills the hungry with good things.
Proverbs 27:7
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7 One who is full loathes honey from the comb,
but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
7 Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. 8 To one there is given through the Spirit a message of wisdom, to another a message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, 9 to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, 10
to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another
distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds
of tongues,[a] and to still another the interpretation of tongues.[b]
but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet.
Matthew 5:6
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6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
James 1:21
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21 Therefore, get rid of
all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the
word planted in you, which can save you.
2 Timothy 4:3-4
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3 For the time will come
when people will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their
own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to
say what their itching ears want to hear. 4 They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.
1 Corinthians 14
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1 Follow the way of love and eagerly desire gifts of the Spirit, especially prophecy.1 Corinthians 12:7-10
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Monday, February 20, 2012
Guardrails
Last night, I actually attended church in the evening. I'm glad I did. We had connection groups. It was the start of a series about spiritual guardrails.We discussed the importance of having personal spiritual guardrails. Guidelines that we hold in place for ourselves without expecting others to follow them. Many people have them whether they are spiritual or not. It is that invisible boundary we've put up to keep us from an area of life that we consider to be dangerous. An example of one of my guardrails is choosing to mainly listen to worship music. I don't expect anyone else to do that, but it is a boundary I have for myself. Words are important to me. They mean something to me. Even when naming my kids, I paid special attention to the names I was bestowing upon them. I avoided names that would curse them and chose ones that would bless them. I really like the name Calvin and was a big fan of Calvin and Hobbes growing up. I wanted to name one of my children that, but then I read that it means bald. I decided not to use it. There is nothing wrong with a man being bald, but I have seen the blow to a man's self esteem from hair loss and I don't want my sons to deal with it. Does naming them Calvin mean they will become bald some day. No. I'm still not going to speak that over them, though. With words meaning so much to me, I chose to avoid listening to songs with lyrics that I feel don't encourage or benefit who I'm wanting to be.Not everyone takes words so seriously and I don't expect them to. That's why I don't expect everyone to have the same guard up about music as I do for myself. Unfortunately people don't always understand that it is a personal thing. They see it as a holier than thou thing and a judgement upon them, if they don't follow the guidelines. I have felt that way myself. I hope, as we continue to study this, that I will not only strengthen my own guardrails, but I will not be so sensitive to the guardrails that others hold for themselves.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
February 19, 2012
Being missional is being a witness for God. This was the message at church today.
"Taking the message of the master to the masses through ministry."
11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
3 I will praise you, LORD, among the nations;
I will sing of you among the peoples.
7 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ 8 Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy,[a] drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give.
11 As Scripture says, “Anyone who believes in him will never be put to shame.”[a] 12 For there is no difference between Jew and Gentile—the same Lord is Lord of all and richly blesses all who call on him, 13 for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”[b] 14 How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? 15 And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!”[c]
"I know I'm not perfect, but at least I'm not what I was." God spoke to me through the minister's statement. I've been struggling with my past hurt for a while now. I don't want to, but it keeps creeping up on me and I look at myself and all that I've thought was wrong with me, and I haven't really looked at what is good or right with me. I have allowed my heart to be focused on the wrong things. When God got a hold of my heart my life changed. Yes I was still being hurt in the same old ways, but I had Him. When I had kids, a struggle began. I fought against the wrong ways that I was taught and every time I failed I held on to that failure. I got so focused on my mistakes that I didn't see how much I've grown or changed. I didn't see what I was doing right or good. Connecting my mistakes with the mistakes my parents made, especially my mom, brought up a lot of pain that I'd never dealt with before. I'd just swallowed it and tucked it away somewhere. Even this very morning, I was talking to my husband about how I hated seeing my hurt bring hurt to my children. These words, "I know I'm not perfect, but at least I'm not what I was." gave me some perspective. Those hurts may be there from my past, but I am not that broken little girl anymore. When God got a hold of my heart, my life changed! As I thought about how different I am from what I was becoming when I gave my heart to the Lord, I realized for all the mistakes and all the failures I've made I'm doing much better than I could've been. I have done many things right and succeeded at things that I may not even be aware of. I know a young lady who reminds me a lot of myself before I gave God my heart. She is hurting and broken. Her mother reminds me a lot of my own. Until I heard this message, I was really close to telling my girls I didn't really want them playing with her. What kind of influence would she be for them? What negative doors was she opening in their lives? Sure they're probably a good influence on her, but was it worth the risk? Sadly many of us "Christians" think like that. We forget that Jesus (as my dear friend put it) "kicked it with sinners." We don't seem to really understand what it means to "Love our enemies" and "Our neighbors" To turn our backs on a family in need is the opposite of what God commands of us. This family should be in our prayers. We should be loving them, knowing how God is the King of miracles. After all we can look at ourselves and allow God to open our eyes to how drastically he changed us. Any time we touch someone we should be doing it with the love of God. Anytime we pray for someone, give to missions, offer support we should be doing it with the love of God. The best way to reach out in such a loving way is to remember to spend time in worship. Spending time with God, just as we do to reconnect with our spouse, our kids, our best friends. When we do that we are better able to answer his call to "Take the message of the master to the masses through ministry."
"Taking the message of the master to the masses through ministry."
Psalm 16:11
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11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Psalm 108:3
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3 I will praise you, LORD, among the nations;
I will sing of you among the peoples.
Isaiah 52:7
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7 How beautiful on the mountains
are the feet of those who bring good news,
who proclaim peace,
who bring good tidings,
who proclaim salvation,
who say to Zion,
“Your God reigns!”
are the feet of those who bring good news,
who proclaim peace,
who bring good tidings,
who proclaim salvation,
who say to Zion,
“Your God reigns!”
Matthew 6:21
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21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Matthew 9:36-38
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36 When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. 37 Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. 38 Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.”
Matthew 10:7-8
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John 4:35
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35 Don’t you have a saying, ‘It’s still four months until harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest.
Acts 1:8
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8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
Romans 10:11-15
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"I know I'm not perfect, but at least I'm not what I was." God spoke to me through the minister's statement. I've been struggling with my past hurt for a while now. I don't want to, but it keeps creeping up on me and I look at myself and all that I've thought was wrong with me, and I haven't really looked at what is good or right with me. I have allowed my heart to be focused on the wrong things. When God got a hold of my heart my life changed. Yes I was still being hurt in the same old ways, but I had Him. When I had kids, a struggle began. I fought against the wrong ways that I was taught and every time I failed I held on to that failure. I got so focused on my mistakes that I didn't see how much I've grown or changed. I didn't see what I was doing right or good. Connecting my mistakes with the mistakes my parents made, especially my mom, brought up a lot of pain that I'd never dealt with before. I'd just swallowed it and tucked it away somewhere. Even this very morning, I was talking to my husband about how I hated seeing my hurt bring hurt to my children. These words, "I know I'm not perfect, but at least I'm not what I was." gave me some perspective. Those hurts may be there from my past, but I am not that broken little girl anymore. When God got a hold of my heart, my life changed! As I thought about how different I am from what I was becoming when I gave my heart to the Lord, I realized for all the mistakes and all the failures I've made I'm doing much better than I could've been. I have done many things right and succeeded at things that I may not even be aware of. I know a young lady who reminds me a lot of myself before I gave God my heart. She is hurting and broken. Her mother reminds me a lot of my own. Until I heard this message, I was really close to telling my girls I didn't really want them playing with her. What kind of influence would she be for them? What negative doors was she opening in their lives? Sure they're probably a good influence on her, but was it worth the risk? Sadly many of us "Christians" think like that. We forget that Jesus (as my dear friend put it) "kicked it with sinners." We don't seem to really understand what it means to "Love our enemies" and "Our neighbors" To turn our backs on a family in need is the opposite of what God commands of us. This family should be in our prayers. We should be loving them, knowing how God is the King of miracles. After all we can look at ourselves and allow God to open our eyes to how drastically he changed us. Any time we touch someone we should be doing it with the love of God. Anytime we pray for someone, give to missions, offer support we should be doing it with the love of God. The best way to reach out in such a loving way is to remember to spend time in worship. Spending time with God, just as we do to reconnect with our spouse, our kids, our best friends. When we do that we are better able to answer his call to "Take the message of the master to the masses through ministry."
Saturday, February 18, 2012
February 18, 2012
I'm terrible about getting on here. I just haven't made it a priority.
I entered a writing contest, but didn't make the final cut. At first I felt very disappointed and discouraged. Then I thought about the fact that I still achieved a few things. I actually finished writing a book and even took the risk to put it into the contest! That is a huge deal and certainly nothing to be overshadowed by a little rejection. I figure, now that I'm not stressing to finish it, I will review it and see if I want to make revisions. Then, hopefully, I can have a few people critique it for me so I can get outside perspectives. I do plan on trying again and again until it is accepted. I've also started on the sequel. I'm pretty excited.
As I did the daily acts of love thing, I'll admit, it wasn't always on my mind. My eyes have been opened, though, to some things that need to change in our family dynamic. I'm home with my kids pretty much non-stop, yet they still go to bed hungry for love and attention. Why? Because the quality of our time needs improvement. It saddens me that we're together, but so busy that the time isn't actually fulfilling. I'm now working on ways to improve that. I know I can't do it alone and am praying about it all.
I entered a writing contest, but didn't make the final cut. At first I felt very disappointed and discouraged. Then I thought about the fact that I still achieved a few things. I actually finished writing a book and even took the risk to put it into the contest! That is a huge deal and certainly nothing to be overshadowed by a little rejection. I figure, now that I'm not stressing to finish it, I will review it and see if I want to make revisions. Then, hopefully, I can have a few people critique it for me so I can get outside perspectives. I do plan on trying again and again until it is accepted. I've also started on the sequel. I'm pretty excited.
As I did the daily acts of love thing, I'll admit, it wasn't always on my mind. My eyes have been opened, though, to some things that need to change in our family dynamic. I'm home with my kids pretty much non-stop, yet they still go to bed hungry for love and attention. Why? Because the quality of our time needs improvement. It saddens me that we're together, but so busy that the time isn't actually fulfilling. I'm now working on ways to improve that. I know I can't do it alone and am praying about it all.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
January 14, 2012
Today has been wonderful. I went outside and played in the snow last night with most of my kids and today I got to do a little snow time with all of them. I pulled my video camera out for the first time in a long time and made sure to take some pictures. I'm looking forward to church and more fun times tomorrow. Hoping that my video camera is actually charging. In tech years it's getting old.
Today I also took down most of our Christmas decorations and put them away. I actually just remembered the ones in the tv room. That's right. It is the middle of January and we still have our Christmas tree and lights up. For us, it's not just something to put up in honor of one day. It's something to fill our home with the reminder that Jesus is with us even during the darkest of times. So we leave it up most of winter. Last year the kids and I put hearts on our tree for Valentine's Day to remind us of the Love that Jesus showed mankind. This year we plan to make actual Valentine's ornaments.
Thinking of Valentine's Day, last night, as I laid in my bed trying to go to sleep, I thought of the Love Dare. Now that is a 40 day thing and it's a nice thing to do. This year, in honor of my 30th year (yes 30 seems to be a big theme in my life right now.) I've decided to spend 30 days focused on expressing unconditional love, positive regard, and respect for my family. You'd think that wouldn't be difficult at all and well we should already be doing all that. However, we are like most families. We get so caught up in the right now that we forget there is a bigger picture. Emotions can run rampant and we can be quite conditional. I want to leave a different legacy for my kids, though. One that reflects the Love of God and his joy and passion for each of us. It may be through a note, some quality time, a time out when my emotions are ready to go off like an encore of fireworks. Whatever I can do to start focusing on loving my family more and remembering that "This too shall pass." during the storms.
Today I also took down most of our Christmas decorations and put them away. I actually just remembered the ones in the tv room. That's right. It is the middle of January and we still have our Christmas tree and lights up. For us, it's not just something to put up in honor of one day. It's something to fill our home with the reminder that Jesus is with us even during the darkest of times. So we leave it up most of winter. Last year the kids and I put hearts on our tree for Valentine's Day to remind us of the Love that Jesus showed mankind. This year we plan to make actual Valentine's ornaments.
Thinking of Valentine's Day, last night, as I laid in my bed trying to go to sleep, I thought of the Love Dare. Now that is a 40 day thing and it's a nice thing to do. This year, in honor of my 30th year (yes 30 seems to be a big theme in my life right now.) I've decided to spend 30 days focused on expressing unconditional love, positive regard, and respect for my family. You'd think that wouldn't be difficult at all and well we should already be doing all that. However, we are like most families. We get so caught up in the right now that we forget there is a bigger picture. Emotions can run rampant and we can be quite conditional. I want to leave a different legacy for my kids, though. One that reflects the Love of God and his joy and passion for each of us. It may be through a note, some quality time, a time out when my emotions are ready to go off like an encore of fireworks. Whatever I can do to start focusing on loving my family more and remembering that "This too shall pass." during the storms.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
January 10, 2012
Obviously I don't get on here daily, but here are a few more things I'd like to achieve by the time I'm 30.
Fitting into my pre-pregnancy clothes would be nice. That concept actually led to another thought, I usually don't go for. Losing 30 lbs. Honestly I'd be content to lose 15-20lbs. I still have about that much left from my last pregnancy. I haven't done anything about it. However, this month I will be attending a yoga class, hopefully, 3x a week thanks to a living social deal my husband got for me. And I'm trying to play outside with my kids more. The other day we kicked a soccer ball around. Of course that leads to another thing. Going outside everyday and being able to leave my house without any fear or anxiety. I have such a hard time leaving the house. Going outside with my kids is the first step. I do go places and even on my own sometimes. But I always feel anxious about it. I want to get to where I don't.
Fitting into my pre-pregnancy clothes would be nice. That concept actually led to another thought, I usually don't go for. Losing 30 lbs. Honestly I'd be content to lose 15-20lbs. I still have about that much left from my last pregnancy. I haven't done anything about it. However, this month I will be attending a yoga class, hopefully, 3x a week thanks to a living social deal my husband got for me. And I'm trying to play outside with my kids more. The other day we kicked a soccer ball around. Of course that leads to another thing. Going outside everyday and being able to leave my house without any fear or anxiety. I have such a hard time leaving the house. Going outside with my kids is the first step. I do go places and even on my own sometimes. But I always feel anxious about it. I want to get to where I don't.
Friday, January 6, 2012
January 6, 2012
In spite of starting the year off sick, I really believe this year is going to shine. I've decided that I would like to achieve 30 things before I turn 30.
First on my list is to become a published author. I recently discovered a writing contest through a self publishing company and am excited to be entering it. I have a story I started during NaNoWriMo 2010 that I've decided to finish and turn in. Yes, I am an amateur and am sure I'll make mistakes with it, but it's worth a shot. I've already done some editing and have found that I had a lot more written than I realized. I am in the process of getting it all organized and polished. This is something I've wanted to do for nearly 2 decades at least! It's sad that it has taken me this long to finally go for it. There are a lot of things in my life like that, though.
I will try to continue to post a new goal each day and share my progress with each of them as the year continues.
First on my list is to become a published author. I recently discovered a writing contest through a self publishing company and am excited to be entering it. I have a story I started during NaNoWriMo 2010 that I've decided to finish and turn in. Yes, I am an amateur and am sure I'll make mistakes with it, but it's worth a shot. I've already done some editing and have found that I had a lot more written than I realized. I am in the process of getting it all organized and polished. This is something I've wanted to do for nearly 2 decades at least! It's sad that it has taken me this long to finally go for it. There are a lot of things in my life like that, though.
I will try to continue to post a new goal each day and share my progress with each of them as the year continues.
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